banana pancakes

college is killing me and i really need to refresh myself. ive been working sooo hard, playing around with assignments and exams and the next few weeks will be harder. final exam is coming up, and as usual, im not ready yet! fortunately, i have bought the ticket to go home! the flight will be on may 29 and i'll be back on june 22. arrrgh, i need a longer holiday. i really need to go home as soon as possible. living here and suprisingly survived is one big achievement i think. with all the dull-ness, boring-ness, very hotttt weather, oh man. home is waaay better than here. the food, the people, the house, mmhhmmm, i miss.

boring boring boring. my life is too boring. there's no excitement, no surprise, no rush adrenaline, no massive heartbeat. yes, i am very happy to live my life but i kinda miss my old one with all those exciting stuff. guess this is life when you enter the world of two-zero aka twenty hahahaha i need to cut my hair, apparently it is so messy and i am not willing to take risk cutting my hair here, so i have to wait until the end of may to have a haircut. pathetic. everything i need and want to do has to wait. until the end of may. end of may. end. of. may. seems like a looooooong way to go. pfffft.

oh, and who said asian are not pretty? yes, we are.

(girlspic)

if she wants me

//What is your current obsession? graduation (!) and more shoes

//What is your weirdest obsession? living in a hypermart or department store ; )

//What are you wearing today? black tshirt, thrifted vest, jeans, sandals

//Why is today special? because tomorrow is a holiday, yay!

//What would you like to learn to do? baking, sewing, drawing, and dancing, i wishh

//What’s for dinner today? i made martabak manis, sinfully sweets ; )

//What’s the last thing you bought? cant remember, food i think

//What are you listening to right now? feist - the water

//What is your favorite weather? cloudy

//What is your most challenging goal right now? not being a procrastinator

//If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? new york or london or ibiza, its either in big city or next to the beach

//Favorite vacation spot? beaches

//What would you like to have in your hands right now? a new cellphone (?) ;D

//What would you like to get rid of? some fat in some part of my body :D

//If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? rio! please!

//Which language do you want to learn? spanish and mandarin

//What did you dream of last night? something weird

//Who do you want to meet in person? john mayer! and anna wintour

//One thing that you would snitch out of someone’s closet, with no regrets? a killer shoes

//What’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet? a corset that makes me look slimmer ;p

//What is your dream job? any job in fashion magazine or a security auditor *yeah, thats why i learn my major ;D*

//If you had £100 now what would you spend it on? shoes

//Fashion pet peeve? fur, not-match colors

//Do you admire anyone's style? zooey, daisy, zoe, alexa, sjp, and those random peeps from random source with amazing style

//Describe your personal style: im more to simple and casual

//Who's fashion show would you want tickets to? oh my. john galliano, vivienne westwood, comme des garcons, hussein chalayan, ann demeulemeester, marc jacobs, yohji yamamoto, topshop, betsey johnson, valentino, arrghhh too many!

(mary-kate & anne hathaway; vogue magazine)

truly, madly, deeply, yes i do : )

"Lovers don't finally meet somewhere,
They're in each other all along."
(Jalaluddin Rumi)

yea, right. im such a loser for romantic things. and this is what happened when i have too much spare time and no boyfriend around. i miss my boyfriend. it might sound selfish and stupid by saying that, because in fact we are only separated for two weeks (and maybe another two later on, so, yea, a month). no biggie. a month without seeing him. i can handle that. i surely can, right?

yea. in. my. dream.

by the time i said goodbye and waved at him while he drove the car, i already missed him. it's been only two weeks. two goddamn weeks, and now i miss him even more.

ok.

ok.

ok.

stop whinning.

i know i sound like a stupid spoiled brat or something. believe me im not.

lets just move on, shall we?

im planning on making martabak manis but im too lazy to even buy the ingredients. oh life. oh, and i skipped a lot of classes this week. i mean, a lot. two hours on tuesday, six hours on wednesday, and two hours today. i guess this laziness is taking over my life. bad days. bad bad bad.

well, next week and ahead are busy weeks, so cross your finger and pray for me. ciao!

bipolar

(hudie)

(wishlist)

merry happy

okay, i might not be updating this blog for more than two weeks, but just so you know, im not dead peeps! ive just been veryveryvery busy with college things and have no time to update ;D well, anyway, there's nothing to update except i have finished my midterm break (and nothing interesting happened, believe me). i also have finished some of my midterm tests and labtests but i still have some more to go. basically my life is about sleep, study, and eat (and play in between :D). my final exam schedule is out and (i think) im going back home at the end of may *i'll update you after i officially buy the ticket, kay?* oh, and in the last mid-term break, i made a cheesecake! yay! i've always been a cheesecake lover and now im learning to make one for myself!

this is the first cheesecake i ever made and it turned out to be good! im so happy that when my friends ate this, their feedback was good :) and for you who think that making a cake is hard, you should try this. this is very easy, even for a beginner with no cooking-skill, this is easy :) let me share the recipe with you.

Plain Cheesecake topped with Chocolate and Whipped Cream

utensils:
spoon (tablespoon & teaspoon)
bowl
round spring form pan (i use the small one with the 12cm diameter)

ingredients:

cake-base:
80 grams biscuits *approximately 4-5 biscuits* (i use digestive biscuits, but you can use any)
40 grams unsalted butter - melted in a pan
2 table spoon castor sugar (you can find it at supermarket, pretty easy to find)

cake-filling:
125 grams cream cheese (any brand, but i suggest Kraft Philadelphia)
5 tablespoon castor sugar
150 gram whipped cream (depends on your likeness of sweet and fluffiness)
1 tablespoon gelatin - boil with a little water until melted

topping:
the topping is base on your taste, since i like it plain, i dont use much topping. you can use strawberry or blueberry jam (mix it well with hot water before spread on the top of the cheesecake)

cooking chocolate
whipped cream



how to make:

cake-base:
crush the biscuits in the bowl and add the sugar. mix them well. pour the melted butter and mix well. put the crushed biscuit into a round spring form pan and press hard until packed. put the pan in the fridge for min. 1 hour (i put it for about 3 hours).

cake filling:
put the chream cheese and sugar in the bowl. beat the cream cheese with the sugar until mixed well. add the whipped cream and mix. last, put the melted gelatin into the bowl, mix well. pour the mixture into the pan and put again in fridge for 1 day.

topping:
melt the cooking chocolate using a pan filled with water and a bowl. after melt, spread it on the top of the cheesecake. add the whipped cream.

HAPPY EATING :))

p.s.: i know mine is far from good and some of you may have better recipes and cakes, but hey, there's no hurt in sharing something, right? :)

i take time

hello there, finally mid-break is coming. one priceless week where i can stay up late and wake up late, ahh.. peace. exams and assignments are still waiting to be done on the following week but hey, today is the first day of holiday and i dont wanna think any.

i have no plan though. couple friends go back, some travel around and/or outside the country, while im here having no plan, at all. well, i planned to visit my boyfriend but his family is coming so i guess he's gonna be super busy. lets just see what will happen this week ;)
i scored one blouse and one t-shirt this week, and this in nothing to be proud of, of course. im broke broke broke. i have to save moreee! really, online shopping is evil. i couldnt stop scrolling down and up and open new tabs and eyeing things. aaargh. i guess i have to close my eyes or else i have to live on istant noodles (which i hate) and plain water everyday.
i got a care package from my mom, money and a pair of contact lens that i really need. thankies mommy, youre the besttt! :) i miss my mom. if only she could fly here right now, give me hugs and kisses, aw aw.. too bad she is afraid of flying (and she is very busy with her work right now), so i guess, i'll see her on june.
i have to do the laundry and clean my room but this is holiday and i just feel like being lazy and playing and sleeping and eating like a pig :D

anyhooooo, anyone wants to give me those items?? *BIG GRIN*

just so you know,

i miss this,

and this,


and this is the sweetest,

(leloveimage)



oh,
and I LOVE YOU.
yes, yes, you.
: )

love song no. 7

"aku sayang kamu kyk pantat sama kentut, ga ada yang bisa misahin pantat sama kentut hihihi loooove youuuu!"

walaupun perumpamaannya agak aneh dan jorok, tapi i love you too, too much :))
p.s.: and this sms really made my day :)

people are people

ive been living one hell of a week. and this hasnt stopped, yet. i still have one week before my midterm break, and yes, more to hell it is. this week i have one submission, one quiz, one exam, and one cisco online exam. sounds like shit yet? not stopping there. next week, i still have two exams, one case study submission, one paper assignment submission, one mini-presentation, and one cisco online exam. pity me already?
my head is spinning, thinking how i should done all those tasks. i try to read and answer the question for the case study but my head is dizzy. i feel like going into the wrong destination, and the more i go through, the more i realize that this is a mistake. a big one. how could i survive thisssss? how could i done my final year project? how could i done my industrial training? what would i be after i (finally) graduate? oh shittttt. regret wont change anything, i know. but i wish this will be easier, and my life will be a lot happier.

(alodita.tumblr.com)

and i miss my boyfriend. this week has been rough, i miss him and i need him. i miss complaining about my life, telling him those unimportant stories and stare his face and hug him, feels like life is easy. i am usually not this melancholic, really. but what had happened in the past few days, weeks, months, or (probably) years was hard. harder than i thought. i miss home and i feel like being there, surrounded with the people i love the most. i miss my mom. i miss my father. i miss my sister. i miss my grandma. i miss my aunt. i want to see their progress of life. my sister can drive now, my mother just got back from bali, my father is in jogja teaching my sister how to drive. i want to fly home and stay inside my house for one full week, doing nothing, going nowhere, just stay at home. im still thinking of buying a ticket, but deep down my heart is telling me not to be a spoiled brat and just survive here.
please, please, fast forward my life. please..

all dialed in

jason mraz rocked my world, hard. oh maaaan, he was waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too awesome! the songs were predictable, although he didnt sing wordplay, but he was good, really. how he combined his song with oasis' and bob marley's, how he thanked the audience with 'thank you' in different languages, how he change his t-shirt to 'i♥kl' one, how he communicated and said 'dont let your mind stop you for having fun' *or something like that, i dont really remember :D*, how he danced and moved his body that made me screamed, and simply how he sang all the songs! i wish that the concert will last for two hours or so, but unfortunately it ended within one and a half hour, only. we want more youuuuuu, jason!

meanwhile, assignments are still not done yet, and midterms are coming, fast. i will have one on 11th, another one on 17th and the last one (before midterm break) on the 20th of march. and i havent studied anything at all. bang bang boom!
oh, how i wish college is just as easy as putting an underwear. sigh.