udah lama banget ga ngeblog. i know, this blog has been abandoned for too long. not that i dont love, not that i dont care, not that ive been dead. i was just.. lazy. kenapa malas sekali? sejujurnya karena ive been pretty occupied with some other things, like, lets say.. life? this year has been a rollercoaster for me. too many things happened. until the middle of this year, my work has been my life. there were times when i had to work from 9 am to 7 am the next day with only 30 minutes of sleep which was not really a sleep. more to curi-curi closing my eyes for 5 minutes, times by 6. but it paid off, (i think) my work has been acknowledge and the bosses know that i worked hard.
things happened this year. some that i never thought will happen, but apparently it did. i officially graduated, i went to places ive never been, i lost someone, i met new people, i saw new things, i had my heart broken. i learned a lot of things. i learned to believe, not to believe, to let go, to accept, to be more mature, to understand, to stand on my ground, to appreciate, to say sorry and mean it, to be thankful. i learned that people change. i learned that love and hate is separated by just a very thin line. i learned that nothing lasts forever. i learned that i could never please everyone. i learned to listen to my heart.
am i happy? yes. without doubt, this year is the hardest, so far. but i guess, this is how things have to be, so just let it be. i made mistakes, a lot of them. i hurt people, some of them badly. i took wrong steps, said wrong words, do wrong things. but thats life. i took risks. some paid off, some didnt. i never know what life will bring me, but thats the excitement, no?
