my head is spinning, thinking how i should done all those tasks. i try to read and answer the question for the case study but my head is dizzy. i feel like going into the wrong destination, and the more i go through, the more i realize that this is a mistake. a big one. how could i survive thisssss? how could i done my final year project? how could i done my industrial training? what would i be after i (finally) graduate? oh shittttt. regret wont change anything, i know. but i wish this will be easier, and my life will be a lot happier.
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and i miss my boyfriend. this week has been rough, i miss him and i need him. i miss complaining about my life, telling him those unimportant stories and stare his face and hug him, feels like life is easy. i am usually not this melancholic, really. but what had happened in the past few days, weeks, months, or (probably) years was hard. harder than i thought. i miss home and i feel like being there, surrounded with the people i love the most. i miss my mom. i miss my father. i miss my sister. i miss my grandma. i miss my aunt. i want to see their progress of life. my sister can drive now, my mother just got back from bali, my father is in jogja teaching my sister how to drive. i want to fly home and stay inside my house for one full week, doing nothing, going nowhere, just stay at home. im still thinking of buying a ticket, but deep down my heart is telling me not to be a spoiled brat and just survive here.
please, please, fast forward my life. please..
1 comment:
Life goes by faster when you stop focusing on the finer details, and start focusing on what you want. The mere fact that you have survived this mess of "hectique" indicates your strength, and don't worry about the future. God will give you the strength to push through when you get there. Make your loved ones proud.
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