i take time

hello there, finally mid-break is coming. one priceless week where i can stay up late and wake up late, ahh.. peace. exams and assignments are still waiting to be done on the following week but hey, today is the first day of holiday and i dont wanna think any.

i have no plan though. couple friends go back, some travel around and/or outside the country, while im here having no plan, at all. well, i planned to visit my boyfriend but his family is coming so i guess he's gonna be super busy. lets just see what will happen this week ;)
i scored one blouse and one t-shirt this week, and this in nothing to be proud of, of course. im broke broke broke. i have to save moreee! really, online shopping is evil. i couldnt stop scrolling down and up and open new tabs and eyeing things. aaargh. i guess i have to close my eyes or else i have to live on istant noodles (which i hate) and plain water everyday.
i got a care package from my mom, money and a pair of contact lens that i really need. thankies mommy, youre the besttt! :) i miss my mom. if only she could fly here right now, give me hugs and kisses, aw aw.. too bad she is afraid of flying (and she is very busy with her work right now), so i guess, i'll see her on june.
i have to do the laundry and clean my room but this is holiday and i just feel like being lazy and playing and sleeping and eating like a pig :D

anyhooooo, anyone wants to give me those items?? *BIG GRIN*

just so you know,

i miss this,

and this,


and this is the sweetest,

(leloveimage)



oh,
and I LOVE YOU.
yes, yes, you.
: )

love song no. 7

"aku sayang kamu kyk pantat sama kentut, ga ada yang bisa misahin pantat sama kentut hihihi loooove youuuu!"

walaupun perumpamaannya agak aneh dan jorok, tapi i love you too, too much :))
p.s.: and this sms really made my day :)

people are people

ive been living one hell of a week. and this hasnt stopped, yet. i still have one week before my midterm break, and yes, more to hell it is. this week i have one submission, one quiz, one exam, and one cisco online exam. sounds like shit yet? not stopping there. next week, i still have two exams, one case study submission, one paper assignment submission, one mini-presentation, and one cisco online exam. pity me already?
my head is spinning, thinking how i should done all those tasks. i try to read and answer the question for the case study but my head is dizzy. i feel like going into the wrong destination, and the more i go through, the more i realize that this is a mistake. a big one. how could i survive thisssss? how could i done my final year project? how could i done my industrial training? what would i be after i (finally) graduate? oh shittttt. regret wont change anything, i know. but i wish this will be easier, and my life will be a lot happier.

(alodita.tumblr.com)

and i miss my boyfriend. this week has been rough, i miss him and i need him. i miss complaining about my life, telling him those unimportant stories and stare his face and hug him, feels like life is easy. i am usually not this melancholic, really. but what had happened in the past few days, weeks, months, or (probably) years was hard. harder than i thought. i miss home and i feel like being there, surrounded with the people i love the most. i miss my mom. i miss my father. i miss my sister. i miss my grandma. i miss my aunt. i want to see their progress of life. my sister can drive now, my mother just got back from bali, my father is in jogja teaching my sister how to drive. i want to fly home and stay inside my house for one full week, doing nothing, going nowhere, just stay at home. im still thinking of buying a ticket, but deep down my heart is telling me not to be a spoiled brat and just survive here.
please, please, fast forward my life. please..

all dialed in

jason mraz rocked my world, hard. oh maaaan, he was waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too awesome! the songs were predictable, although he didnt sing wordplay, but he was good, really. how he combined his song with oasis' and bob marley's, how he thanked the audience with 'thank you' in different languages, how he change his t-shirt to 'i♥kl' one, how he communicated and said 'dont let your mind stop you for having fun' *or something like that, i dont really remember :D*, how he danced and moved his body that made me screamed, and simply how he sang all the songs! i wish that the concert will last for two hours or so, but unfortunately it ended within one and a half hour, only. we want more youuuuuu, jason!

meanwhile, assignments are still not done yet, and midterms are coming, fast. i will have one on 11th, another one on 17th and the last one (before midterm break) on the 20th of march. and i havent studied anything at all. bang bang boom!
oh, how i wish college is just as easy as putting an underwear. sigh.

the dynamo of volition

(feb'09)

i always believe in the circle of life. well,apparently, my life is being on the lower side of the circle right now. i am waaay too lazy *and i mean it, really*, i eat too much, i sleep too long, i spent too much. oh man. pfffftt.
well anyway, jason mraz is coming soon, in less than 24 hours, he'll be rocking my world! hurrah for that! i am gonna sing, dance, and steal him of course. too bad i still have to go to morning class tomorrow, at eight am. eight o clock in the morning doesnt seem very early for you, probably. but believe me, here, in my place where i live and spend time, eight in the morning is like five. really. the sky is still dark enough for you to pray subuh, and the weather is unbearable. cold and windy, the weather that you feel like going to sleep and spend your time snuggling in your bed waiting the sun to shine. believe me. and i have to take a shower before that. could you imagine how cold the water will be? and dont ask me about how i behave inside the class. i will just yawn and close my eyes each time the lecturer change the slides. life is hard, my friend.
gotta go. ciao!

live high

lindsay lohan is one damn skinny bitch,
i want.

(hedislimane)

a beautiful mess

what i said before is true. remember on what i was saying about weekend that is becoming to be just another day in a week? truly true. shitt. this weekend, on friday, saturday, and sunday *yes, ALL three days* i have this meeting in campus. and the time of the meeting is just ridiculous. seven at night. seven! could you imagine that? i should be going out somewhere with my girls when i have to attend this meeting because apparently the meeting is compulsory for my division ONLY. double shit. and you know what makes it triple shit? my boyfriend is coming this weekend. shit shit shit. this is getting worse. i shouldnt take the job at the first place. now, life lesson #1984203: think before you decide. shittttttttttttttttt.

thank god, i have another meeting with another person that will make this world a better place to live *well, at least my world is going to be a better place :D* im gonna meet *or see? who cares* JASON MRAZ!! the mr.az himself, yayyyy! bought the ticket, prepared the car, planned the trip, im going to see jason mraaaaaaaaaz! this is what i'll scream when i see him;

(photobucket)

sparkling sparkle

(ffffound!)

i skipped two classes today. my going-to-campus mood is below zero. im such a lazyass nowadays. i hate thisss. i really need to be productive. at least, pretend to be. help meeeeee!

you know what's good?
+ getting A without having to study hard
+ having a cup of hot chocolate and biscotti while reading magazines
+ buying shoes (or clothes, or bags, or anything) :)
+ having a private plane
+ baking cheese cookies
+ listening to my ipod until falling asleep
+ hugging my boyfriend
+ morning kisses ;)
+ big breakfast
+ mac and cheese with extra cheese added with broccoli and smoked beef
+ caramel pudding without caramel sauce
+ loooong weekend

oh shit. dreams. g'bye.

the man of metropolis steal my heart

(we♥it)

im waaaay behind everybody now. all i could think about is having a really long time sleep, eating mac&cheese or triple cheese pizza (or a bucket of vanilla ice cream, or cheese pretzels dip into cream cheese sauce, or potato wedges with cheese dressing), and holiday trip. i suck, i know. i should be doing one of my assignments, writing some report that due to be submitted in just two weeks from now, researching some things about my business plan for one of my subject, practising programming hard, trying to hack something, or just simply do some math. i really need to make my brain works a little bit harder.
college is only in week four but i am a college slave now. i never arrive at home before 10 pm *except friday when i have no class, please do not disturb me*. i always have something to do after class, be it cisco course or some meetings that started at 8 pm and finish at almost 11. my eating pattern is bad bad bad. i once had lunch at 11 am and dinner at 11.30 pm. see? weekend is no longer free time. weekend is just another day in a week that i have to spend doing something related to college. i hate it hate it hate it. can i just go back to kindergarten please?

p.s.: im addicted to how i met your mother. neil patrick harris is just simply irresistable ;)